Damn myself, not the woman

I can't

I learned if I strike first, you will never do your worst
Get em when they're down

It's now too late
I can't unknow you
I can't unhold you
I can't control you
It's now too late
I can't unlove you
I can't untouch you
I can't control you

All my life I'm on the run
I can't escape from what I've done
I wake myself on the edge of sleep
I fear the truth cuts too deep

I never will escape myself