If heaven weren't so far away
Judgmental fuck, how much does my soul weigh
Do not send me up, let me waste and decay
As I'm giving up, God, I've got no more faith
Hot needles, carry me, ooh I am, blind
People standing like they give a damn
So feeble welcome me with open hands
But I'm evil, I knew that you'd misunderstand
Take me down to where they burn
Spread my ashes out the urn
Stubborn so I never learn
Is heaven even worth the sufferin'?
When I'm gone say your goodbye
Finally peace of mind
If you could see the way I try
I can't wait till I am not alive

Silence, the carolina breeze'll close my eyelids
I see my family and lose my conscious
Ambulance rushing for me, I'm unresponsive
I'm okay, I know where I go when I'm dying

I can't go up there to heaven, when
I'm dead, can you save me my own spot down in hell
I can't go up there to heaven, no
Accept and just say your goodbye and wish me well I can't go up there to heaven, when
I'm dead, can you save me my own spot down in hell
I can't go up there to heaven, no
Accept and just say your goodbye and wish me well