I lie on the floor
My stench fills the air
I feel pain
But it's numb
Falling apart
As my mind begins to unravel

I don't think I'm dead
But I'm not living either
My mind feels like a chaotic mess
Rotting away
After so many years of destroying myself again and again

I wish I could find healing
I know where to get it
But for some reason I can't bring myself to change
I'm not entirely sure why