You never wanted to see me leave this. I never wanted to stick around
And there's a rainstorm in my head that I just can't outrun right now
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches so I can get away
Sometimes I think that I'm the only one who feels this way

The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head
And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them
It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it?
But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way

I thought that with a change of pace
That I could get the hang of this
You're just another something
That I can't seem to erase
I thought that with a change of pace
That things would start to feel okay again
I guess I'm never gonna learn
I guess I'm never gonna learn

I tried to make it to the ending of a book I never read
I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches when I start to feel trapped (it's hard to breathe)
I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stay close to me

I thought that with a change of pace
That I could get the hang of this
You're just another something
That I can't seem to erase
I thought that with a change of pace
That things would start to feel okay again
I guess I'm never gonna learn
I guess I'm never gonna learn

Could you tell I wasn't honest?
I could've been, I could've been
I couldn't be all that you wanted
Could you tell I wasn't honest?
I could've been, I could've been
I couldn't be all that you wanted